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HAhah! I type 74 words per min. Quite an amazing feat. I think...

Some kool song.. @ least that describes any broken hearted poor soul's mind now.

Let it die and get out of my mind. We don't see eye to eye, Or hear ear to ear. The saddest part of a broken heart, Isn't the ending so much as the start.It was hard to tell just how I felt. To not recognize myself - I started to fade away. And after all it won't take long to fall in love. Now I know what I don't want I learned that with you. The saddest part of a broken heart, Isn't the ending so much as the start.The tragedy starts from the very first spark. Losing your mind for the sake of your heart. The saddest part of a broken heart, Isn't the ending so much as the start.

Let It Die - Feist

The lyrics are kinda good. just that i dun understand y sometimes ppl wanna sing like that. rather outrageous. haha.

it's been a couple of weeks since i last blogged. some of u may think i'm fine. but here's the bad news..i'm back to that hole which i have been trying to climb out months ago. sometimes i feel that i'm really stupid to have fallen deeper into this hole just when i was about to climb out. the deeper the fall. the greater the struggle to climb out. the greater the struggle, the easier u'll fall deeper.

again.. i'm struggling like mad. my mind is full of her again. watever i do i think of her. living my life just to see her smile. but she just couldn't accept it. she couldn't give up her current bf. that's so discouraging to hear sometimes. she makes me, then breaks me. she wants to meet me. i arranged everything, always looking forward to seeing her, den she backed off @ the last min. i dunno whether i shud b angry, sad, disappointed or watever shit. but it just sucked to have the feeling that u are being taken for granted.

the reason i fall deeper is because i always put other's before me. think of her first before myself. well, wat the fuck did i get in return? i guess this is just something that i get out of being nice. maybe i shouldn't be such a nice person anymore... at least to her.

no use being angry. i guess my mates, bros, close friends have all given my their piece of advice. i guess it's really up to me, in the end, to do what i should do. it'll be difficult. it's always not easy to do. but i guess i really have to concentrate on forgetting miss mo li for the sake of myself. for the sake of not making myself so low, so without pride, so empty, so sad, so jibai.

so feel like screaming now. but to do that. i'll wake up the entire neighbourhood... see... in the end i'm still a nice guy, putting other's before me... jibai........

went to vivo with a new friend i just met recently. she gave me 2 thoughts which i tot was rather meaningful.

There will be 4 ppl you meet in ur life.

Yourself,
Someone that loves to the most,
Someone you love the most
A balance.

Hmm... I would think that I'm at part 3 now. I hope the balance will come soon. HAHHAHAH.

The 2nd thing she told me.

If the feeling you get out of loving someone is pain... Then you will not be blessed.

Knn. Well. she's someone that's gonna get married soon. went thru her fair share of scandals, heartbreaks and love. Ha. I told her the story between me and mo li. It's like a normal thing in her life. It feels kinda strange though. hahhaha.

knn. how strange? wo gen ni jiang... i also dunno how strange. But wat i'm pretty sure now. is i wanna fucking pang sai......... cheerios dudex...