In the end, she said she love her boyfriend too much to give him up. I'm so sad and dissappointed. I cannot sleep, my heart is in pain, hai........................................ My father in heaven.. please help me and bless me to get over this pain. - Amen -

张信哲--太想爱你

慌乱城市中
连风都不自由
热闹的街头
就属我最寂寞
是爱的蛊惑
让我又兴起贪求的念头
有多爱我
够不够久
会不会走

藏在柔顺背后
你忠於自我
情爱里游走
从不曾见你低头
我却常犯错
像一个太忙太累太傻的陀螺
转个不休
只放不收
停不了手

太想爱你
是我压抑不了的念头
想要全面占领你的喜怒哀愁
你已征服了我
却还不属於我
叫我如何不去猜测你在想什麽
太想爱你是我压抑不了的折磨
能否请你不要不要选择闪躲
只想爱你的我太想爱你的我
难道只能在迷雾中猜你的轮廓

Hated it when u say i'm not serious....

16th - 17th Nov 2007.
These 2 days mark an important day in my life. It's the day i confessed my feelings and emotions to a girl i like and it's the day she told me to try not to like her. It's the day I cried my heart out, when will it be the day i give up. I'm pretty sad, heartbroken, melancholic and everything sad.. I thought we will be really happy together -- She thought otherwise.. I wanted to spend my time loving her, live for her, care for her, worry for her.. but she told me to find someone else. That's y i'm sad... like fuckin' sad.... Man... I can't accept it.

I dun wanna elaborate furthur. Coz i think this will go on and on... i'm not weak. fuckit.

I hate it when my sms-es dun get replied.
-Fuck

It's already middle of nightime, and i'm still awake. Waitin for my IPOD to finish its updating... prolly can use this time to type in some entries. But just as i'm using abit of my brain to think of what to write, it's sending the wrong signals - instead of signalling me to think, it's signalling my eyes to go heavier.. well .. that's it for now, i gonna sleep...x...

Sometimes it sucks when you forgot your towel when bathing... That's what happened to me today, I had to shake myself dry for like 15 mins... jumping up and down and shaking my body as vigorously as possible... hahaha... stupid..

It feels really fucked up to be jealous....................